hold your head high

When someone pushes you around,

put your feet down.

Who says you can’t do anything?

When you know you won’t stop at nothing.

Cry with all your might

but learn how to fight.

Keep a stiff upper lip,

and show everyone you’re hip.

Hold your head high

and keep reaching for the skies.

Never let anybody get you down.

Show them you can turn your life around.

Be thankful to the high heavens,

and praise him for all he has given.

After a bad fall, stand up and move on.

Aches and pains won’t be for long.

Hold your head high,

and start a brand new life.

Get back into the groove,

feel the rhythmn and move.

The only way is up,

and never dare stop.

You have been broken,

But you can be whole again.

Hold your head high

and learn to live by.

direction

I do not know where I go, but the further we lay our paths, it seems the farther we are from where we should be or where we want to be.

What is Intelligent??

Intellectuality is not intelligent. Ordinary people judge intelligent based on knowledge. Knowledge is based on memory. People who gets good grades at school are not more intelligent. They get good grades because they have a good memory.

Intelligence is intrinsic to life. Intelligent is not an achievement. Each child is born intelligent, and the moment the child is born, we pounce upon him and start destroying his intelligence, because intelligence is dangerous to the political structure, to the social structure, to be religious structure. It is dangerous to the pope, to the priest, to the leader. It is dangerous to the status quo, the establishement. Intelligence is naturally rebellious.

A child is a very very open phenomenon utterly intelligent. But we jump upon him, we start desteroying his intelligence. We start creating fear in him. We call it teaching, we call it making the child capable of coping with life. Schools, universities all make him more and more unintelligent. They demand foolish things. They demand foolish things to be memroized, things in which the child and his natural intelligence cannot see any point. By the time a person comes back from the univesity, he is unintelligent - the university has done its job.

7 things on my mind

1. pure veggies is the best diet
2. non-fat ice cream would be good now
3. the sun is setting
4. Why didn’t i get up earlier today
5. The tuna taste too salty
6. Must finish the novel tonight
   
7. Will go andwalking in the evening

   7 places I like to be/visit:

8. Bora bora, Tahiti (The French Polynesia)
9. Egypt (Pyramids)
   
10. India (taj mahal)
    
11. Thailand (Nice resort, private beach)
12. Maldive
13. Greece
14. Boston, States

    7 favourite drinks:

15. h2o
16. fresh milk
    
17. tomato & carrot juice
    
18. Fresh lemon squash
19. Berry buzz (from MIX)
20. melon shake
    
21. hot chocolate
    

    7 favourite food:

22. True rich chocolate cake (not those spongy ones, not those black forrest kind from chinese bakery)
23. French fries (Restaurant-type, not fast-food type and the ones that have potato taste. And I mean french fries, not curly fries or wedges)
24. Mushrooms (served on green pasta 'few lettuce', on soup,baked, boiled, steamed, in sandwiches, however they are cooked, I just lov’ them)
25. milk favoured scones (I really that dry-texture of scones)
26. Waffle (Must be served hot)
27. Lobster sashimi (Lobster from Australia is the sweetest)
28. Foccacia bread (Lightly toasted. Umm the aroma. Lov’ it)

    7 things that I dislike:

29. Bugs!! (Spiders, mosquitos, ants)
30. People that do not have dreams and believe things are impossible
31. People who wander around their whole life
32. Drunken men
33. People with odour or bad breath
34. Sake
35. Criticism

    7 things I want now (but don’t have)

36. My own family (wife + kids)
37. A home = mom & dad :(
    
38. New songs in my ipod
39. school + classmates :(
    
40. volumes of science (latest books related to science & astronomy)
    
41. aluminum laptop
    
42. Mountain Bike :)
    

    7 things i can’t do (and probably never will)

43. Sing
    
44. dance
45. Blow a bubble with my chewing gum
46. Whistle (I just can’t!)
47. Clap hands with a beat ( i just don’t have rythm)
48. climb
    
49. Swim

    7 biggest Regrets:

50. Don't know how to mingle
    
51. Depression over my school projects
    
52. Lost of closest between karen & tao ( 2 years ago)
    
53. Being to snobbish
    
54. Did not spent more time with my father when we're together
    
55. Wasn’t able ready for acceptance
    
56. Cancel the trip to Egypt when i decided to take an exam (i should've take special)
    

    7 greatest things that occur in recent months:

57. Became good friends with anna & jet
    
58. Met my SOULMATE
    
59. Opportunity to live in XIAMEN
60. Able to start new LIFE
    
61. Closer relationship with my2nd mother (yaya)
    
62. Learnt to be more independent
63. Realize what i need in my life

    7 things I want to do before I die:

64. Become a productive engineer (not just one that get salary and do nothing)
    
65. Hopefully die late enough in life
66. Be with my woman for the rest of my life and dream ceremony with reception with my friends and families.
67. Experience what it is like to be a real father and grandfather
    
68. Have 6 children
    
69. Be a loving and caring husband
    
70. Grow old but still-in-love with my wife

    7 things I do (but i consider silly):

71. I wash my hair twice each day (in one showering)
72. I smile in front of the mirror before I go out
73. I log on ym most of the time but I block almost everyone online
74. I plan my days ahead but never follow the plan
75. I carry a book with me all the time (and read anywhere)
76. When I like to talk to someone. (I just sit and wait)
77. I keep on talking to myself while im walking
    

    7 little things that annoys me:

78. When restaurant charges for water.
    
79. When people are too loud (so annoying)
    
80. People who don’t respect privacy
    
81. Flirt Ladies
    
82. People picking their ear-wax in public
83. When people trying to be smart and end up with duh, (i don't understand)
    
84. People that full of pretentions
    

    7 favourite eat-out places:

85. The Peak Outlook
86. Starbucks (timog)
    
87. My grandparent’s home at Shanghai
88. Thai restaurant at Pacific Place
89. Japanese Yakitori place at the end of Queen’s Street (the one at basement, that nobody knows about)
90. Caloocan Pancit Resto
    
91. Korean restaurant, end of Shoyiah St.
    

    7 things that attract me to the opposite sex

92. Sweet & caring (like my girlfriend)
93. A scent that draws my attention
94. Intelligent & Attentive
    
95. God Fearing
    
96. Well mannered (manners are extremely important)
97. Show respect (not just me)
98. Family-oriented

    7 bad habits/traits i have:

99. Sticking my leg onto the chair, when I’m sitting down
100. Taking my shoes off in the car and putting them on the seats
101. Skip showers during cold days, when I am not going out
102. When I am tired, I become too lazy to turn off the lights before I sleep
103. I don’t approve nor reply on messages (Whether it is friendster or emails. Unless I knew those senders)
104. I question about everything (I always need answers)
105. Being snobbish
     

     7 people I admire:

106. My Mother
107. My cousin, Iya (Hey, she really is the luckiest woman on earth.)
108. Albert Einstein
     
109. My grandparents (they are forever so nice and wonderful. I have never gotten’ angry at them. Although my grandma can annoy me sometimes)
110. Giulia Noelle Nobleza (She's MY LOVE)
     
111. MY PARENTS ( miss them)
     
112. God (He's The KING)
     

     7 simple things I appreciate most:

113. An unexpected hug, just when I need it most
114. An unexpected text msg, just when I need it most
115. Christmas card (In the post, not those lame electronic versions. And not those self-printed ones)
116. A Sweet Smile
     
117. A compliment that makes my day
118. Someone (meaningful) telling me they love me
119. Tears shed for me

     7 things I’m afraid of:

120. Failure
121. Loneliness
     
122. Reaching my forties and still living alone
123. Working oversea - moving into another new country alone.
     
124. Spenting birthdays, valentines, christmas, new year without the people i love
     
125. Seeing my baby walking away from me
126. Seeing Abuse Children
     

End of 7 things =)

ability to appreciate things in life..

Believe is a word which shouldn't be considered merely as a word. Words are many in the vocabulary of English dictionary though the word belief always stands out since it gives a hope of something.
Something which is established after a deep understanding between the two which takes years to build and a second to shatter it. So the important factor is sustaining what we have. Sustaining the things god has blessed us with is something we all fail to do from time to time. Although if a will is present then nothing is impossible. Remembering that life is an opportunity which one gets once only is a thought which makes things easy. As then believing in what we have will become a habit of ours when a realization is inculcated within by never letting things go astray since then importance will increase by learning from life by analyzing life is never a wastage of time.
All things we do in life have a meaning attached to it which shapes our future to a direction where we are more or less clueless though through a belief we have had in our ability and in the abilities of others we always are able to overcome.
Continuous effort in the right direction means success. Success will surely be the result once realization has been acquired by believing in oneself by displaying the ability to appreciate.

A mother

A Mother is a special person
In the eyes of Jesus Christ,
Who cherished His own mother
To the very end of life.

Mothers have hands so gentle,
To soothe away the pains
Ears to hear all problems,
And help set them right again

A Mother’s heart is open
When a wayward child returns
Forgiveness shows a part of love
For which her child now yearns.

Mothers never do give up
On any straying child
But teach them courage as they grow,
Remaining meek and mild.

A hug is always ready,
Waiting at the door
When the grown child comes home
To mother’s arms once more.

I missed you dear mother
Thank you for everything
for raising me as your baby, now full grown
May God the Father honor you.

I LOVE Y♥U

Time

For every thing, thought, concept or even characteristic, there is an equal of the opposite. Good and Evil. However, Is "Good" the limit? is "Evil" the cruelest? What goes beyong good? well, "Good" is but a concept. A better example, time and numbers. both infinite in both directions. zero in numbers is the very middle, the equilibrium of digits… where is the equilibrium in time? between Good and Evil… theres Neutral. Between past and future… there is present. Time is like a set of numbers, infinite in both ways, but the equilibrium is in the present. Visualizing time as these infinite numbers, where zero is the present, always. For we are always in the present. "I think, therefore I am" (Descartes), so this gives me the idea that the mind, is time and has infinite numbers in limitless directions. We do not stay in place and time goes… no, We are time. We are not reliant on time for we are always in the present! Yet we are, because we are still caught up in this dream web. But if the mind realizes this, it becomes time. hmmm……

anxiety and me

While the world I know hangs by a thread, all the circumventions of dilemma threatens to break and come tumbling down. Now while I piece the puzzle together to form a solution, the picture that forms are of all the ones that I care for and can’t wait to see her (my baby). Where is the balance? more importantly, what is the best solution? Never once have I suffered from anxiety that almost tore my sanity to shreds… So many decisions to regret… So many incomplete answers. While I await the fog and mist to dissipate into a more concise vision of the future, I will have to devote my time and memories wisely. Time still works against me for I am just another mortal fool who got caught up in it. Human, all too human… but I would never trade it for anything right now for its frailty grounds you to the world and breathes lives into all these tarnished thoughts. I must prevail through the sunny and stormy days, so that I may sip a cup of hot choco of being and enjoy it throughly. At the moment of this gloomy dusk, all I can think about is the sunny day that will re-appear upon your arrival. For we are always on departure, searching for our connecting flight to our final destination.

blue skies & blue seas

As the beautiful sky connects with the deep blue sea, the difference between the two fade away and you can’t tell where one ends and where the other begins… even when the sun goes down, the reflection off of the wavy navy blue serene ocean completes the burning orange sun to make up for whatever gets eaten up by the never ending horizon. Everyone should be so lucky to have a sky to reflect their troubled waters upon, for tomorrow doesn’t promise anything, but today will last forever and every other day is just forever more. Yeah, the mad season is over, all is calm beneath the eye of the distant storm that has dissipated just somewhere out of my sight… and it feels good to breathe free and clear once again. For it is the consummation of our madness that make sense of my crazy world. No need to be weary, no need to worry because i am alive.

from dawn to dusk

The choices that never choose to relieve why you did what and what you have done; As shameful the path you’ve lived sometimes, the cleansing rain pours to wash it out of the way to leave a brighter sun for the days to come. Did i leave a bad taste in your mouth or do you still want to dig up the dead? All in all, I’ve washed my hands of the sinful consenting wounds that seem to bleed now and then. Please, catch your breath and tell me what options are there left when you’re no longer confused. So that I may tell you why, from now, I stand my ground alone and I stand strong so that you will never fade away into the silhoutte. Yet another silhoutte…

The passing waves are merely that of life and the searching seas to a final destiny of shores. I have no regrets in life while there are many things I would’ve done differently, I wouldn’t change a thing about you. Perhaps I don’t have to live in the dawn anymore… maybe I can finally see the dusk where our heads will lay together for the next day and the next and the next….

vegetarianism

What is the position of manu smrti on the question of eating meat? The general commandment given (called a samanya) is: "Do not eat meat." There are a number of reasons why this injunction is given. One is from the spiritual standpoint, that there is one Self or one Life that pulsates in all beings; since all beings want to live happily in this world, we do not have the moral right to take away a life or to cause any unhappiness or sorrow to others. This is a simple dharma, to understand.

The second reason is that the greatness and dignity of human beings is their ability to sacrifice their lives for others. The person, who sacrifices his comforts or wealth, his happiness, or even his life, in order to protect, sustain, and help others, is considered great. Therefore, we are cutting the very root of the glory of human life and degrading ourselves.

In recent times, several organisations have been formed to protect wild life and forestry. A movement of this kind is necessary nowadays because there are so many greedy and cruel people who are concerned only with their own acquisitions and pleasure and are ready to destroy anything for their own sake. Human beings should sacrifice for others, not sacrifice others for their own personal comforts, pleasures of other pursuits.

A third reason for not eating meat is given with respect to an argument put forth by some non-¬vegetarians. If all beings have life and vegetarians kill and eat plant life, why should we not eat animals also? However this argument is really a fallacious one, for if we extend this reasoning a little further, we would then be asking why we cannot eat human beings also. If it is necessary to destroy life no matter what we eat, then why is there a shortage of food? But, of course, everyone would reply, "Oh, that is horrible! How can you say that?" No one will agree with the argument when it is taken that far.

Even though there is-life in all beings, in both vegetable and animal kingdoms, there are degrees of evolution and of the manifestation of intelligence. The degree of feeling and understanding, of mental and physical pain, is much less developed in plant-life as compared to animal-life. According to our dharma sastra, the purpose of human life is to know the Truth. In order to know the Truth we must sustain our lives, but it needs to be done with proper discrimination.

When a patient goes to a doctor, the doctor will try to treat the patient with as little medicine as possible and without an operation. However, if an operation is necessary, the doctor performs it, generally with anesthesia, so as to give the least amount of pain and discomfort to the patient.

In the same way, although life must be sustained with life, it should be done by causing the least pain and disturbance to nature. This means that even when eating vegetarian food we should eat,moderately and with discrimination. Even from an anatomical point of view, the body structure of a carnivorous animal is meant for eating meat whereas the human body is not. From a medical standpoint also, many people today are advised to reduce their fat and cholesterol intake, which generally means the reduction of red meat in the diet. It is needless to explain here that not only meat-eating, but excessive eating of any kind is not good for physical health.

cries of a teen

Some things aren't what they seem when your just a teen. you begin to hate the world then you begin to hate the people who give you the hardest times in this world. Things aren't the same when you were the greatest writer in the world only to find out that you're not worth anything in this world.
You start to fill as if your hopes and dreams where nothing but lies. Every day you're filled with anger because the world has done you wrong. Because of your life and how you grew up, you have shackles on your feet you're left setting in a corner crying yourself to sleep.
You're an outcast and lonely child. You feel as if your whole life is just a fragment of a dream. These are the cries of a teen that will never be listen to when they're trying to speak. The cries of a teen who's dreams will never come true in the end.

my laptop survived!!

i spilled almost a whole cup of hot coffee over my laptop yesterday. The coffee diffused into my keypads and speakers so quickly. By the time, i got some paper towels (trying to hide my mess to everyone , since there is a no drinking rule at school) the coffee was already dripping out from the bottom of my laptop. After drying it , my laptop could not be switched on.

I thought i manage the incident quite well. I wasn't frustrated (like i would years back), instead i went to read a book on anatomy. Perhaps, i am in a too unhappy sort of mood.. counting my days down..

Today the computer could be turned on! although the keypad feels sticky (despite multiple attempts to clean), the "i", brackets, shift keys needed tredemous push for it to work. Or else, my computer is working as it use to be. Oh.. except that it now carries very creamy coffee smell.

Will i try to sneak coffee again while listening to my teacher?-> YES. hehe

the greatest day in History

Unlike in 1945 the first world war did not end neatly with the unconditional surrender of the germans. After the dramatic week of negotiations , military offensives and the beggining of communist revolution , the GERMAN imperial regime collapsed. the kaiser fled to holland. The allies eventually granted an armistice to a new GERMAN government , and 11.00hrs on november 11 , the guns officially ceased fire, but only after 11,000 casualties has been sustained more than on the DAY. the story of this remarkable day has never been told properly, and yet the roll call of eyewitnesses who left us their impressions includes adolf hitler , charles de gaulle , harry S. Truman, Anthony Eden, Marie Curie, Maurice Chevalier, Richard strauss and more future generals.. revealing that events were far from pre-ordained.

How the great war really ENDED. this volume sets as an example that will be hard to equal
the book is undoubtedly an enthralling read, miscelleny tragedy mixed with delight. this book is really awesome!!

tuesday

2pm Lie in bed, reading othello.. "shakespeare's classic"

3pm prepared lunch (yogurt + strawberries + garden salad)

3pm remodelled my room.

6pm Sweet potato + garlic spinach for dinner

7pm leisure book reading

8pm hot chocolate time :)

^i love my little reading corner in my room^

Unpredictable

I feel like i'm sometimes just thrown into a tornado of things. You'll never know what you'll bump into that chaotic whirl.
Unpredictability.
Today, was a day full of it. Not necessarily a pleasantly surprising one although i di find a thing or two to smile about.
Sometimes you just get this gut feel about this certain things, certain people, certain events. It's the kind of feeling that you can't simply ignore because it kind of nags you. It's the feeling that something out of place, or doesn't seem right. I have a lot of those and i've learned to heed that gut feeling, intuition i have. And i think it helps you deal when some things just don't turn out the way you idealized them to be. I don't really want to be concrete about it all, it's just too complicated, messy, even.
What im trying to say is, I used to think things didn't turn out right because of my actions, because of me, but as i've learned i can't control everything and everyone and there's always the probability of change. The capacity and capability of time, of choice, or circumstance, to completely take you back. And it isn't your fault. And we have all these defense mechanisms lined up to be our fallback in the event of the unpredictable. We were designed to be sure of uncertainty.
Life just has this damn habit of throwing things at you sometimes bonking you on the head. A wake up call, Perhaps?
I enjoy how things no matter how unpredictable still turn out quite favorable in the end. Things just sometimes balance themselves out. It can be thrilling, actually.
Just learn to pick yourself up when you stumble along the way.