ability to appreciate things in life..

Believe is a word which shouldn't be considered merely as a word. Words are many in the vocabulary of English dictionary though the word belief always stands out since it gives a hope of something.
Something which is established after a deep understanding between the two which takes years to build and a second to shatter it. So the important factor is sustaining what we have. Sustaining the things god has blessed us with is something we all fail to do from time to time. Although if a will is present then nothing is impossible. Remembering that life is an opportunity which one gets once only is a thought which makes things easy. As then believing in what we have will become a habit of ours when a realization is inculcated within by never letting things go astray since then importance will increase by learning from life by analyzing life is never a wastage of time.
All things we do in life have a meaning attached to it which shapes our future to a direction where we are more or less clueless though through a belief we have had in our ability and in the abilities of others we always are able to overcome.
Continuous effort in the right direction means success. Success will surely be the result once realization has been acquired by believing in oneself by displaying the ability to appreciate.

A mother

A Mother is a special person
In the eyes of Jesus Christ,
Who cherished His own mother
To the very end of life.

Mothers have hands so gentle,
To soothe away the pains
Ears to hear all problems,
And help set them right again

A Mother’s heart is open
When a wayward child returns
Forgiveness shows a part of love
For which her child now yearns.

Mothers never do give up
On any straying child
But teach them courage as they grow,
Remaining meek and mild.

A hug is always ready,
Waiting at the door
When the grown child comes home
To mother’s arms once more.

I missed you dear mother
Thank you for everything
for raising me as your baby, now full grown
May God the Father honor you.

I LOVE Y♥U

Time

For every thing, thought, concept or even characteristic, there is an equal of the opposite. Good and Evil. However, Is "Good" the limit? is "Evil" the cruelest? What goes beyong good? well, "Good" is but a concept. A better example, time and numbers. both infinite in both directions. zero in numbers is the very middle, the equilibrium of digits… where is the equilibrium in time? between Good and Evil… theres Neutral. Between past and future… there is present. Time is like a set of numbers, infinite in both ways, but the equilibrium is in the present. Visualizing time as these infinite numbers, where zero is the present, always. For we are always in the present. "I think, therefore I am" (Descartes), so this gives me the idea that the mind, is time and has infinite numbers in limitless directions. We do not stay in place and time goes… no, We are time. We are not reliant on time for we are always in the present! Yet we are, because we are still caught up in this dream web. But if the mind realizes this, it becomes time. hmmm……

anxiety and me

While the world I know hangs by a thread, all the circumventions of dilemma threatens to break and come tumbling down. Now while I piece the puzzle together to form a solution, the picture that forms are of all the ones that I care for and can’t wait to see her (my baby). Where is the balance? more importantly, what is the best solution? Never once have I suffered from anxiety that almost tore my sanity to shreds… So many decisions to regret… So many incomplete answers. While I await the fog and mist to dissipate into a more concise vision of the future, I will have to devote my time and memories wisely. Time still works against me for I am just another mortal fool who got caught up in it. Human, all too human… but I would never trade it for anything right now for its frailty grounds you to the world and breathes lives into all these tarnished thoughts. I must prevail through the sunny and stormy days, so that I may sip a cup of hot choco of being and enjoy it throughly. At the moment of this gloomy dusk, all I can think about is the sunny day that will re-appear upon your arrival. For we are always on departure, searching for our connecting flight to our final destination.

blue skies & blue seas

As the beautiful sky connects with the deep blue sea, the difference between the two fade away and you can’t tell where one ends and where the other begins… even when the sun goes down, the reflection off of the wavy navy blue serene ocean completes the burning orange sun to make up for whatever gets eaten up by the never ending horizon. Everyone should be so lucky to have a sky to reflect their troubled waters upon, for tomorrow doesn’t promise anything, but today will last forever and every other day is just forever more. Yeah, the mad season is over, all is calm beneath the eye of the distant storm that has dissipated just somewhere out of my sight… and it feels good to breathe free and clear once again. For it is the consummation of our madness that make sense of my crazy world. No need to be weary, no need to worry because i am alive.

from dawn to dusk

The choices that never choose to relieve why you did what and what you have done; As shameful the path you’ve lived sometimes, the cleansing rain pours to wash it out of the way to leave a brighter sun for the days to come. Did i leave a bad taste in your mouth or do you still want to dig up the dead? All in all, I’ve washed my hands of the sinful consenting wounds that seem to bleed now and then. Please, catch your breath and tell me what options are there left when you’re no longer confused. So that I may tell you why, from now, I stand my ground alone and I stand strong so that you will never fade away into the silhoutte. Yet another silhoutte…

The passing waves are merely that of life and the searching seas to a final destiny of shores. I have no regrets in life while there are many things I would’ve done differently, I wouldn’t change a thing about you. Perhaps I don’t have to live in the dawn anymore… maybe I can finally see the dusk where our heads will lay together for the next day and the next and the next….

vegetarianism

What is the position of manu smrti on the question of eating meat? The general commandment given (called a samanya) is: "Do not eat meat." There are a number of reasons why this injunction is given. One is from the spiritual standpoint, that there is one Self or one Life that pulsates in all beings; since all beings want to live happily in this world, we do not have the moral right to take away a life or to cause any unhappiness or sorrow to others. This is a simple dharma, to understand.

The second reason is that the greatness and dignity of human beings is their ability to sacrifice their lives for others. The person, who sacrifices his comforts or wealth, his happiness, or even his life, in order to protect, sustain, and help others, is considered great. Therefore, we are cutting the very root of the glory of human life and degrading ourselves.

In recent times, several organisations have been formed to protect wild life and forestry. A movement of this kind is necessary nowadays because there are so many greedy and cruel people who are concerned only with their own acquisitions and pleasure and are ready to destroy anything for their own sake. Human beings should sacrifice for others, not sacrifice others for their own personal comforts, pleasures of other pursuits.

A third reason for not eating meat is given with respect to an argument put forth by some non-¬vegetarians. If all beings have life and vegetarians kill and eat plant life, why should we not eat animals also? However this argument is really a fallacious one, for if we extend this reasoning a little further, we would then be asking why we cannot eat human beings also. If it is necessary to destroy life no matter what we eat, then why is there a shortage of food? But, of course, everyone would reply, "Oh, that is horrible! How can you say that?" No one will agree with the argument when it is taken that far.

Even though there is-life in all beings, in both vegetable and animal kingdoms, there are degrees of evolution and of the manifestation of intelligence. The degree of feeling and understanding, of mental and physical pain, is much less developed in plant-life as compared to animal-life. According to our dharma sastra, the purpose of human life is to know the Truth. In order to know the Truth we must sustain our lives, but it needs to be done with proper discrimination.

When a patient goes to a doctor, the doctor will try to treat the patient with as little medicine as possible and without an operation. However, if an operation is necessary, the doctor performs it, generally with anesthesia, so as to give the least amount of pain and discomfort to the patient.

In the same way, although life must be sustained with life, it should be done by causing the least pain and disturbance to nature. This means that even when eating vegetarian food we should eat,moderately and with discrimination. Even from an anatomical point of view, the body structure of a carnivorous animal is meant for eating meat whereas the human body is not. From a medical standpoint also, many people today are advised to reduce their fat and cholesterol intake, which generally means the reduction of red meat in the diet. It is needless to explain here that not only meat-eating, but excessive eating of any kind is not good for physical health.

cries of a teen

Some things aren't what they seem when your just a teen. you begin to hate the world then you begin to hate the people who give you the hardest times in this world. Things aren't the same when you were the greatest writer in the world only to find out that you're not worth anything in this world.
You start to fill as if your hopes and dreams where nothing but lies. Every day you're filled with anger because the world has done you wrong. Because of your life and how you grew up, you have shackles on your feet you're left setting in a corner crying yourself to sleep.
You're an outcast and lonely child. You feel as if your whole life is just a fragment of a dream. These are the cries of a teen that will never be listen to when they're trying to speak. The cries of a teen who's dreams will never come true in the end.

my laptop survived!!

i spilled almost a whole cup of hot coffee over my laptop yesterday. The coffee diffused into my keypads and speakers so quickly. By the time, i got some paper towels (trying to hide my mess to everyone , since there is a no drinking rule at school) the coffee was already dripping out from the bottom of my laptop. After drying it , my laptop could not be switched on.

I thought i manage the incident quite well. I wasn't frustrated (like i would years back), instead i went to read a book on anatomy. Perhaps, i am in a too unhappy sort of mood.. counting my days down..

Today the computer could be turned on! although the keypad feels sticky (despite multiple attempts to clean), the "i", brackets, shift keys needed tredemous push for it to work. Or else, my computer is working as it use to be. Oh.. except that it now carries very creamy coffee smell.

Will i try to sneak coffee again while listening to my teacher?-> YES. hehe

the greatest day in History

Unlike in 1945 the first world war did not end neatly with the unconditional surrender of the germans. After the dramatic week of negotiations , military offensives and the beggining of communist revolution , the GERMAN imperial regime collapsed. the kaiser fled to holland. The allies eventually granted an armistice to a new GERMAN government , and 11.00hrs on november 11 , the guns officially ceased fire, but only after 11,000 casualties has been sustained more than on the DAY. the story of this remarkable day has never been told properly, and yet the roll call of eyewitnesses who left us their impressions includes adolf hitler , charles de gaulle , harry S. Truman, Anthony Eden, Marie Curie, Maurice Chevalier, Richard strauss and more future generals.. revealing that events were far from pre-ordained.

How the great war really ENDED. this volume sets as an example that will be hard to equal
the book is undoubtedly an enthralling read, miscelleny tragedy mixed with delight. this book is really awesome!!

tuesday

2pm Lie in bed, reading othello.. "shakespeare's classic"

3pm prepared lunch (yogurt + strawberries + garden salad)

3pm remodelled my room.

6pm Sweet potato + garlic spinach for dinner

7pm leisure book reading

8pm hot chocolate time :)

^i love my little reading corner in my room^